找回自我

      不知道什么时候，我从开朗的人变成了哀伤的人。不知道的什么时候，我失去了我的笑容，所以我才要决定要找回我的笑容。我累了，我不要这样的生活，痛并快乐着真的不适合我，万事随缘，顺其自然吧，带着自己的快乐感染他人的快乐，何乐而不为呢？

        不要再为任何人烦恼，生气， 这些是不值得的。活着不管开心还是伤心， 日子都要过的啊~ 日子又不会因为你伤心，难过而停的!! 所以为何不选这开心的过每一天呢??

      说的容易，做起来还真难。在这过程，有伤心的，有苦恼的，由烦心的。这几天，我不断的祷告。希望上帝能把我们的距离拉近，不要再把我们的距离扯得更远了。最近，我发现到我们的距离有了些好的进展了。只是不知道什么时候可以像以前一样。

     在这过程，不止是友谊考验，还有我要面对即将来临考试的压力。有好几次我要放弃这友谊了。可是我不舍得啊~我的不舍，不知是否被上帝知道了??我可以深深的感觉上帝的帮助。有我的不舍，再加上上帝的帮忙，我想我会很快的熬过来的。祈求上帝可以帮帮我，阿门~

人何苦活得太累，让自己和大家都开心才是人生最美的一道风景线。

11.11.11

11.11.11 is a special day...
also is first time gathering in this sem..
i go out with t3..
i fell enjoy n hapi when g out with t3...


we eat dinner together...
when we eat dinner..
we talk everything.. 
we share everything..


after finish dinner, we go to second round...
eat lok lok...


after lok lok, we go third round at in front of bejing..
we share everything funny was happen at campus.. 

make we don't want go home to slp..
we talk, talk n talk...
we laugh, laugh, laugh...


11.11.11 is special day for me...
n my happiness day when i at there...
i can share everything with t3 even din talk mind....
i like go out with them..
i like play with t3...
i fell i'm no lonely when gathering with them..


T3,
Thax...u ppl make my no lonely at there..
u all so cute...so funny...

FRIEND!!!!FRIEND!!!!

This few week, i have been doing a lot of thinking about friends and the art of having a successful friendship. Three year ago, me, you n she become a good friend. For me, you n she, this three year is not long n not short . You n she ever give me happy, nice n funny life. I so happy can meet you n she in my life. You n she make my life so colorful. Every time i see back our picture, i will laugh along at there. That because our ever make some crazy thing, funny thing n foolish thing together. We have that history we can build on together.  


We are good friend not is because we were stuck in the same institution of school and we either got along with people or we were loners during recess, lunch, sporting events, weekends, etc. We are friend that is because we belief each other, can talk everything to each other even is funny, happy, sad or scare's thing. Besides that, we can give idea, opinion, information to each other.

But this few week, i fell that our friendship is become poor, bad n always quarrel until hate to see each other. This make me lazy to care about it. I every hate that ppl always 'black of face' face to me every time, plz~ don't like that, ok???


I know no ppl is prefect in this world. But plz~ control ur temper, ok???Don't curse everyone whom are with u when u r unhappy. I also is human, also have mood such as happy, angry, scare just same like u. Plz~ don't let off ur bad mood to ppl are not involved with thing that make u unhappy, k???I know you n she have many dissatisfied with me. 

NO!!! Not is me unlike together with you n she, is you n she always disregard me. Many time, i try to enter you n her world. But i can't. You n she never give me a chance to enter. Every time, when you n she are talking, i don't know what u ppl talking about. If i ask, you will give this response to, say:" This no your business.". Then???? No THEN.... 

I never care that thing even is funny or sad. I just want share with u ppl together only. You no give me chance to share something with u ppl. U ppl laugh at there n me???? Slp, ReAd, OnLiNE along at there. You know that time i fell so lonely unexpectedly. I fell i'm along at there. This place no have our friendship anymore in the beginning at poli. I want find back our friendship.

Friend, what happen with us?? what going on??? Why can't it be as easy as jumping in the sandbox and saying, "Will you be my friend?".

   

孫耀威 << 不屬於我的淚 >>

断线的风筝

雨天里飞着

直到风声停了

就在最脆弱的时候 想起你了

眼泪终於悄悄掉了

我们走的路 来到了结束

残酷 我只能撑住

眼泪不属於男人的 是你说的

我又何苦坚持不肯认输

不属於我的泪 终於让我崩溃 

让未来的泪水 每一滴都是心碎

最後原来这是一种体会

被你囚禁的眼泪 也让我慢慢枯萎

不属於我的泪 不用再还给谁

用力哭出泪水 遮掩过我的伤悲

就让我流出最後的一滴泪

我转身 头也不会 男人身上不流下眼泪

我们走的路 来到了结束

残酷 我只能撑住 眼泪不属於男人的

是你说的 我又何苦坚持不肯认输

不属於我的泪 终於让我崩溃 

让未来的泪水 每一滴都是心碎

最後原来这是一种体会

被你囚禁的眼泪 也让我慢慢枯萎

不属於我的泪 不用再还给谁

用力哭出泪水 遮掩过我的伤悲

就让我流出最後的一滴泪

我转身 头也不会 男人身上不流下眼泪

不属於我的泪 终於让我崩溃 

久违了的泪水 每一滴都是心碎

到最後原来这是一种体会

被你囚禁的眼泪 也让我慢慢枯萎

不属於我的泪 不用再还给谁

哭出泪水 去掩没我的伤悲

就让我流出最后的一滴泪

我转身 头也不回 男人身上不流下眼泪

 

东于哲 Thomas Jack/ 阿哲- 爱与不爱

最近喜欢东于哲 Thomas Jack/ 阿哲的 爱与不爱。。。

爱？？？？ 不爱？？？

爱 不等于 喜欢。。

爱与喜欢是两码事。。

在这世上我最爱我mummy n daddy了。。

only them i love...

beside that of cos i also love my three sister n brother...

without them,

i no perfect in this world...

不爱 不等于 恨或讨厌哦!!! （要记得这一点哦）

不爱他的 也可以跟她做朋友哦。。。

这是要看你个人自己怎样看他人了。。

要开心的面对一个人还是每天黑着脸的面对咯。。。^^''

gambateh to myself...\^.^/

GAMBATEH!!!!! GAMBATEH!!!!

hope me can get good result...
hope me can all pass for tis sem...


tis sem,
NO fb, NO game, NO movie, NO gathering...
ONLY...
study HARD!!! HARD!!!


not be like tis again...
can i do it???
i think.. i believe....
I CAN．．．MUST CAN．．．

back~back~to place so far from my hometown...++'''

at here...plz don't ask me whr i come from...
becoz my hometown too far from here...

but...

y???

y i wan come to here???

wat thing can i make tis decision...

tis DREAM...MY DREAM...

without tis, 

i think..
i believe..

no anybody want to leave their hometown agreeable..

no anybody want to leave their daddy n mummy agreeable...

no anybody want to leave their honey n darling agreeable...

no anybody want to leave their family agreeable...

penang trip part 2 \0.^/

today is last day at penang....so sad..but i'm hapi... i like tis travelling...^^

penang museum

hahaha..要上堂咯。。

超大，超富有的家~

penang 打战的码头

最好，来个大合照吧。。

penang trip part 1 \ 0.0/

Penang, i'coming..  wan go find something to eat n play.... WHERE we will GO??

到了fort Cornwallis, 来摆出 posses 来拍照吧~

还没进去前，拍张照先吧~

来，跟姐姐的 poss 。。拍张照下。。

勇士们来挑战下吧~很刺激，很好玩的哦~

勇士们， 出发了咯。。包庇包庇。。出入平安哦！！

东于 哲。。。。%^@^%

yeah...又能听到他们的歌了。。。

超爱的。。。

尤其是这首歌。。。

它让我想念我那两个爱人了。。。

超想他们的。。。

but...

不用紧。。。

再过一个月就可以见面了。。。^^

ipoh traveling.....>.0

on17/7, go to ipoh with my buddy n my cute classmate le... tat day, i so hapi n so tried after back form Ipoh...Hope us can keep the this friendship forever...^^

如果~如果~如果。。。

世上有那么多如果就好了。。。
很多时候，都会想。。。
如果当初这样就不会那样了。。。

可是。。。
就算这样有能怎样？？
事情发生了就是发生了。。。
人生没有那么多的如果。。。

如果太多。。。
也不好啊。。。
人就会想更多了。。。
也带来了更多的烦恼了。。。
也顾虑太多了。。。
同时，
也变得胆小了。。。

轻松了。。轻松了。。。\(^o^)/

今天完成了。。一切的一切。。。
其他的就交给我亲爱的上帝了。。。
我相信会是不错的成绩吧。。。

不管怎样。。。
尽力就好了。。。
至少不会对不起自己就好了。。。

一切的一切完成了。。。
突然，觉得好累。。好累。。。

好像已经。。
好久好久。。
没有休息了。。。
没好好的睡上一觉了。。。
没上网跟朋友们聊天了。。。
也没打回家听听爸妈的声音了。。。

突然，
好想他们了。。。
好想看看他们哦。。。

再过一个月，
我就回家了。。。
到时就可以看到他们了。。。so hapi.....

my blog...blog..blog....>.0

so long din come to my blog le...

don't noe when start my busy life...

don't noe when i don't noe what i want share in my blog...

buzy..buzy...n buzy life...

make my life so full in something...

something unhappy...

something happiness...

something boring things...

something make my stress...>.<

so...many...many thing in my life...

this thing can make me blur in my life...

when think back, on that time, 

i so confuse...

is it are my life or not???

only that thing in my life...

too funny...

too lame...

too boring life...

first gathering with my classmate...↖(^ω^)↗

2/7/2011 is my first time gathering with my new classmate at utar...

at tat day also have one of mid-term test for me...

but i already let it to my God...

God will agreement it for me...

i hope that i can get gud mark for it...
Dear God, plz bless me in tis test...

after test, i have gathering with my new classmate...

i very happy play with them....

that gathering let me know whom are my classmate...

we take dinner together...

at tat time,
i just now have some one of us  birthday...

then, i celebrate her birthday together...

if not this gathering,

i think i will don't know whom are my classmate..

n i will don't know what them name....hahaha...

after we take the dinner,

we have a surprise for one of my classmate..

then, we go to play pooh...

so nice to play n them so pro than me o...

paiseh la...paiseh la...

but nvm...i play..i happy..it already enough...
after play the pooh, we all go to drink at MM...

 

this gathering are very successful for this time...

i hope next gathering will best than this gathering...

through this gathering, 

i fell that my new classmate are so nice n cute...

i so happy can meeting all of them at this sem...

hope that we are classmate for next sem again...

  

心情超坏的。。。

不知道是否是因为太了解对方。。。
还是相处的时间太长了。。。
开始讨厌彼此的缺点了呢？？
我也不知道。。。

可是就请你不要把我跟你跟她来做比较，好吗？？
你会的。。她会的。。我不一定会啊。。。
不会，不是一种罪。。好吗？？
你懂的可不是每个人都懂。。。

我知道你是个完美主义者。。。
可是。。。
不是每个人都是。。。

最近不知道发生了什么事？？
老实跟他们吵。。。
不是跟你就是跟她。。。
可能就因为这样。。 。
才让我越来越觉得我们之间有了‘距离’吧。。。

虽然天天见面。。。
每晚睡在一起。。。
起床第一眼看到的。。是彼此。。。
可是我几乎不知道。。他们在做什么。。。
他们在讲什么。。 。

我知道他们都很厉害。。。
可我不是你们。。。
也不像你们什么都会。。。
我承认。。。
我比你们笨。。。
也没有你们那么厉害。。。
什么都懂。。什么都会。。。
可是我会并我的实力。。拿到属于我自己的本领。。。
还有成绩，好吗？？

我知道他们讨厌我的胆小。。。
就因为我的胆小，而不敢帮你们任何事。。。
也因如此你们不是叫我看家。。就叫我看车。。这些小事。。。
我也没话讲。。我也只有服从你们了。。。
因为我知道我是不敢的。。。

我也知道他们讨厌我问他们知道的东西。。。
有时，我真的拿他们没办法。。。
不知道该这么办。。。

不问，就会听到“好过你什么都没问”。。。
“好过你什么都不管”。。。
“像你多好。。对这事都不在乎，方正我们弄就好了哦”。。。
问了，就那种表情。。。（很无奈）
叫对方讲给我听。。。
你这样。。我也懒得问。。。

对方也就随便附言我几句。。。
有时， 心情不好。。就应了几句。。。
你就会用不爽的语气回应我。。
“方正那是你的事。。你不懂，谁理你”。。。

所以我每次都不问。。。
等你们来跟我讲。。。
或者跟你们讲起了。。我再问。。。

ipoh travelling with new friends...>.0

last week(11/6/2011), i and my new friend go to ipoh for shopping..
that day i very enjoy with my shopping...

i so happy can make many friends, except my two buddy at here..
people at here so nice and cute...
i think i can make good friend with them...
when together with them, i fell that i so old than them....
bcos my age is older than them...
but i trust that i can become their nice and good friend..
at ipoh traveling, i bought many thing....
 

my new watch...cool..

my cute cactus...

改变的是自己还是时间。。。

昨天我看到有篇文章是这样的。。
文章里写出我一半的心情和想法。。

这文章这样写的。。
他写说。。

不知道什麽时候
我也习惯了一个人
喜欢一个人独处的感觉
不知是时间变了
还是自己变了

终觉得我越来越不了解他们了。。
有时不知道他们所讲的东西。。
有时我觉得我是个局外人。。
完全不能进入他们的世界里。。

有时我觉得好孤独。。
好像这里只有我自己一样。。
问太多。。他们嫌我烦。。很烦的附言几句。。
不问。。他们觉得我不闻不问。。
好像我问不问都是不对的。。

这文章里还写了这样的一段。。

没有人知道我的失落
没有人知道我的无助
没有人知道我的寂寞
没有人知道我的不快乐、
没有人知道我的不开心、
没有人懂我理解我心疼我

我不晓得是因为我们相处的时间长了。。
还是久了。。
这感情变淡了。。还是怎么了？？？
我想离开几天。。
让我可以好好的去想想这段感情。。

UUU...

我偶像的歌。。哈哈哈。。。
帅吧。。。

cannot believe i also have this chance...>.0

haha...cannot believe it...

i can not believe that now i at utar now...

and now i study university...

i never think that i can study until university...

before finish my sem 6 at poli,

i think i cannot study at university..

i already think where place i will go...

and what i will do if i just get diploma only...

i already think about how my life will coming soon...

 

but..

dear god, give me a chance to study at here!!!

i think i will study hard...and hard...

try my best to finish my university cos at here!!!

expect this i will upgrade in my English language

as fast as flash i can.. 

i don't want waste my this chance....>.<


ps: tis is my first time write blog in English...
      sorry if any wrong grammar and spelling...>.<